Friday, November 18, 2016

Friday Forethoughts

As far as my hair is concerned, I really believe I've got a set regimen in stone that is allowing my hair to flourish. I also believe that my hair is at or very near to optimal health and that from this point forward, as long as I maintain consistency with my current regimen, I should see growth in no time and Classic Length stretched should be in the near future.

I'm also thinking about picking up Oil Cleansing for my evening facial routine now. I don't really have one as it stands, but the older I get, I wonder if I need to start creating one. I am starting to want to dabble around in makeup, at least with my lips and possibly eyes. I feel Plain Jane as it stands which is okay... I like Plain Jane, she's pretty chill. But sometimes, you just want to jazz it up with a little pizazz. But I don't really know the first thing about makeup, so I figured maybe I'd just start with lips and progress from there.

And it doesn't stop there, I need to get my fashion skills up to par. Regular jeans and a solid tee just doesn't seem to cut it anymore. Not when there's so many fabrics and prints to use to tell your whole life's story with!

Beauty Goal(s):

  • Dress up at least one day this week
  • Continue to moisturize and seal hair as I have been
  • Practice Oil Cleansing my face at least 3 times this week

I have been off and on with my iron vitamins because I don't want to overdose on the iron and end up getting iron poisoning, but I can definitely tell a shift in my mood. I'm beginning to feel extremely lethargic and I'm freezing cold everywhere I go, even when it feels like 3rd degree weather outside! I did notice a little more hair shedding but I kind of want to believe it's still in the normal range.My lips have been drying out more which I will also attribute to low iron. I've had all my tests done by the doctor and now I'm just waiting to go in for the results. For the time being, I've been trying to maintain whatever vitamin levels I have by taking a Geritol Supplement daily, but sometimes I even forget to do that.

When I do have the energy, I still like to exercise. I'm starting to take advantage of my community gym and while I am in the motion of exercising, I love it! I feel like I can breathe, I feel more flexible, more calm, more peaceful. But afterwards? I feel like I just crash! The lethargy starts to settle in and it becomes so crippling the only way to get rid of it is to sleep it off for 12 hours lol and it shouldn't be like that... at least I don't think it should. Exercising should fill you with energy, not leave you dang-near motionless! This is another reason I'm anxious to find out what my levels are and start fixing them.

I've also been thinking about taking up morning or evening yoga to help deter whatever stress it is that I'm harboring.... (or maybe I can just take a nice luxury vacation you know soak in a hot spring or something lol...). But trying to bend down into those downward dogs seem to make my anxiety flare up even MORE! lol But maybe I'll give it a shot.

Health Goal(s):
  • Continue to take Geritol supplements daily
  • Get in a good 30 minute workout at least twice this week
  • Try morning or evening yoga twice this week

I am back and forth when it comes to taking on an Entrepreneurial title and I don't know why. I have been selling handmade crochet locally for about 2 years now and just now deciding to take it online. I don't know what's completely holding me back from just diving into it full force...well, without having to quit my job that is lol, but I just wish I could get a grip on it and yank it away.

Whoever drew this..... I need this painting in my
living room! lol
I guess my fear is the uncertainty. I've been forced to deal with constant uncertainty so much in my life that I turned out to be the child that always had a plan B-Z when plan A fell through. And while I'm not as particular as I was back then, I suppose that still has a hold on me. I was told today that I might have a touch of slight perfectionism at work and, I never thought about it, but she might be right. I never thought I was a perfectionist because I usually get tired of waiting for things to be perfect and just jump in but the fact of the matter is..... I do wait. And I think that's my issue.

But with entrepreneurial work, it won't ever be perfect. Because at some point, it's going to have to grow. And what business doesn't grow? What anything doesn't grow?

Maybe my issue is being found? As a person that's been hidden for so many years, I'm not used to being seen or having people know what I'm doing. I've always been the person who just shows up and everything is just happening. lol I don't think many people look at me and see "a work in progress", I feel like I've always been seen as "the result" meaning that I am pretty independent of my ambitions and rarely ever reach out. I'm not used to it. I'm trying to "get" used to it but now I have to get used to not being at the end product already... I have to get used to... being vulnerable, maybe THAT'S my issue. I'm not used to being vulnerable... I feel I have a lot to work on when it comes to that but maybe that is why I don't feel relatable to others, since I'm not that open. I thought I was open but well, guess I'm not lol.

So I am going to keep working on my Etsy shop and also work to increase this blog as well. Keep Calm and Coily is my favorite hair blog, and I have to admit, I'm surprised that this blog has been up for the many years it HAS been. Back in the day, I was QUEEN of starting and deleting blogs. I just couldn't keep to them. Now that I think on it, part of it may have had to do with my lack of vulnerability and lack of committment. I don't want KCC to die out that way. And honestly, since I've been back up and posting, I'm really starting to enjoy it more and more. But I feel like I've made it enough about me, I want to start including everyone who stops by to read my rambunctious rambles as well.

I have lots of new installment ideas that I'm going to start implementing very soon, even in the coming days! I'm excited about the potential of KCC, and down the line, I actually have a LOT of ideas of what I want to do with this blog and the turns it will take.

In the very end though, it IS still a documentary blog about me trying to attain Classic Length stretched natural hair... but why not make it fun and interactive until we get there!?

Career Goal(s):
  • Publish a new listing on my Etsy Shop
  • Introduce new installments to Keep Calm 'n Coily
  • Start breathing and thinking before I speak

When I think about being PRESENT in life, I think about taking in the world around you. And that's something I used to do a lot as a child. Everything intrigued me from the color schemes on a butterfly to the distresses of the world. My own experiences increased my empathy in others and made me more aware of the things that I did that I felt would affect others and everything around me. Though I wasn't entirely social as a child, I was completely aware.

I feel like the older I get, I'm not as aware as I used to be. I believe part of that reasoning is because I don't want to be aware. I don't want to be aware of how bitter and rude people are and how gloomy city landscapes seem to look these day. Who wants to be aware of all of that negativity?

But I realize the less aware I am, the more empty I start to feel. I feel like I'm starting to become all those bitter and rude individuals I can't stand! And that's not what I want to happen. So perhaps I should practice being aware, practice appreciating the colors of the sky and the sounds of birds again. Appreciate the people who appreciate me instead of dousing all my pent up frustrations on them. Learn to be present, to be there, to hear and to be heard. Maybe if I practice doing right by others again, then the right people who need to find me... will.

Life Goal(s):
  • On one of my breaks at work, take a walk outside WITHOUT blasting my music and just take note of the life around you
  • Do not return evil for evil.... but don't bring it home with you either. Learn to let things go.

10 Reasons to be Grateful

  1. I'm grateful for people who understand, and who listen and who really hear me. 
  2. I'm grateful for family who put up with me and the mood swings I go through. I'm grateful for the freedom to be who I am. 
  3. I'm grateful for the God that loves who I am and doesn't penalize me for being human, even when I know I'm wrong. 
  4. I'm grateful for a country that is... kind of free. Okay, so some things could be way better.... but then again, it could be way worse. 
  5. I'm grateful for humor and the ability to see a brighter side in everything. 
  6. I'm grateful for the simple things, like having a bed to sleep in, food to eat, and a roof over my head. 
  7. I'm grateful that everyone has the potential to be great, to be inspiring, to be whatever they put their minds to. 
  8. I'm grateful for all of the roads that were paved before me and all the opportunities that opened up for me because of them.
  9. I'm grateful for love and the many variations of it. Whether it be platonic or romantic, constant or rare, no one should have to be without love.
  10. I'm grateful for thoughts. Without thoughts, many of the things we have now probably wouldn't be here.

But until next time,

♥ Keep it calm 'n coily ♥

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